your loveee

many appy polly loggies

i didn't mean to break your heart. really. you're just a clingy, annoying, and kinda ugly. plus, i found someone better & have always had someone better. SO. "spoils of war," right buddy ?

they'll be in the mail soon.

BLINK ! BLINK ! BLINK !

"To put it simply, We're back. We mean, really back. Picking up where we left off and then some. In the studio writing and recording a new album."

those are my boysss :)

hmm

went to court today. sat for 25 minutes. then the judge called me uppp. no witness, no case -- case dropppppped :) which made me break out in a chorus of face dropp by sean kingston :)

let me update you !

haha, well, i graduateddd :) and had a graduation partaaay -- and am currently blogging with my new laptop :) mhmm & money. me gots doughh. hahaha.

it all started with a text

this boyy x3> i remember exactly how we met & how we talked for a month and a half before you asked me out (which was two weeks before we actually saw each other). i remember trying to impress you & how nervous i was to call you and talk to you. i remember traveling up to st.jays for the first time and feeling like i was visiting a prison. i remember when you first came out of the door and i was standing in the snow, covering my face because i was afraid of you - you were drinking a red powerade and your lips were red & you held your arms out to give me a hug. i remember the first time we danced & our first fight. i remember the first time. i remember when you met my parents & we told them that you went to antioch so my dad would approve. i remember my dad not approving :) i remember making enemies with your exes. i remember the first time i said "i love you" on Christmas Eve over the phone. i remember going to that lacrosse game of yours. i remember making and losing friends with you & realizing we're better off without them. i remember waiting for open weekends so i could see you. i remember the fights: every.single.one. i remember when everything fell apart. i remember when we fell apart. i remember coming together stronger than ever -- like nothing ever happened. i remember when you told me you wanted to enlist in the army. i remember how supportive you were when i told you i'd be going to school in Hawaii. .... i remember it all, you know.but there's one thing that's always constant:me. and. you.

shakin my headdd

can i say something ? i hatehatehatehateHATE when people who are DATING/IN A RELATIONSHIP say that they're "married." da fuckkk ? like its cool when you're in junior high, or maybe if it's your best friend, but it just makes you look like a dumbass. hi, you're not married & have been dating for what ... two days ? ye, there are folks that have been dating for TWO years and they're still "in a relationship." -_-

facebook is getting ignorant.
just sayin.

uh ohh

guess whata nukkaaaas ?
i'm back :)
i kinda figured i'd need this for when i go off to CHAMINADE UNIVERSITY OF HONOLULU BABY !

btw:

to all you pieces of shxt out there :)

rebelution.

definitely lovin 'em. anyway, my day has been fabulous ! what about yours ? i learned i'm gettin all A's for the first quarter :) hell yeah. hell yeah. hell yeah. so i try not to get sucked into whatever the school is listening to ... but i figured i'd give Rebelution a listen and omg. absolutely wonderful. definitely one of my favorites, along w/Reel Big Fish :) and OPM.

wait, what ?

i love you.
with all my heart and tummy, too :)

!!!

the truth.

lovelovelove !

....

can i just get accepted to Hawaii Pacific University already ?
can it be august so i can get the fxck out of here already ?

:(

my week has just SUPREMELY sucked. no joke. just like, everything went up in flames one after the other. i've just drowned myself in schoolwork and college applications to hold it together and stay busy so i dont think about it.

& you're not even there to talk to anymore. which makes me just bottle it up. and cry.

WHATEVER.

valentine's day is rapidly approaching. whoopdeefkndoo. i always hated valentine's day; bcuz somehow, my heart's always broken around this time. whether it's some HUGE fight or a break up or infidelity -- it's happened EVERY SINGLE TIME.

& because i started thinking about that; my day was completely shitty. COMPLETELY. SHITTY. so i figured i'd just call out all three guys that made a difference. not by name or anything. just by crimes committed.

dickhead #1) first heartbreak. ever. 8th grade :( but it also doesn't help that every once and a while he comes in and eats and we talk. i'm over it for suree.

jerkface #2) met him freshman year. liked him till he moved to washington. dated on and off for three years. i'd date other guys in-between and vice versa. he cheated on me w/a freshman ... but he had me wrapped around his finger. which is what i'm afraid of. he could say ANYTHING and i dunno how i'd react. but i guess it sucks even more that he wont even talk to me ... oh and he has some new girlfriend.

jackass #3) ONE YEAR. best friend. not too bad.

if i'd known then,

another one of those days

today, i really just wanna sit around, blog, clean my room, do a lil laundry, then go off to work.

53 days until i'm 18 :) i want silver balloons and a crown. lmfao because i'm the motherfxcking princess ! not really. wanna know my birthday wishlist ?

1. YOU
2. TO
3. BE
4. WITH
5. ME

wtf ?

lovelovelove this song; lovelovelove ke$ha ... hatehatehate my lifeee

dear john,

it made me really. really. really. upset.
'nuff said.

tell hollywood to quit with cliches & start getting REAL. and stick to the book :) its the best part.

CUDI !

heartbreaker

have you ever just felt absolutely, terribly unattracted to someone and make a point to try to make it obvious -- but they're still obsessed with you ?

i mean, wtf are you supposed to do ? hire a skywriter and make it so blunt that they'll never talk to you again ? how hard is it to understand that i'm just NOT into you like that ? i mean, i know i'm a cool chick and everything but ... LMFAO jaykay :)

but really ... GET A CLUE.

on a lighter note, tracy chapman is fabulously fantastic when you're stressed. same with sara bareilles, regina spektor, vanessa carlton, sia, & kid cudi. YEEEE CUDI :) hahaha

today kicked ass

yeah, it did :) woke up at 8:30 thoroughly believing i'd slept through first period and so sat up in bed for 10 minutes pondering what to do -- till i realized it was a late start and the bus would be there in ... 15 minutes :) so i power-dressed and fluffed aaaand ended up looking not NEARLY as shitty as i do when i have more time. school was pretty interesting. hahaha, well, not class -- but people seemed more tolerable.

YEAH. MY SCHOOL -- TOLERABLE. IMPOSSIBLE, NO ?

but now its time to slave away on homework, applications, & scholarship essays. absolutely fabulous.

... Dear John on friday. GIRLS NIGHTTT <33

"you've got some potential, angelica"

potential for what ? to be one of you ? no offense, but i like myself being uncloned. & besides, who made you in charge of deciding what makes someone somebody or someone nobody ? why would i wanna be part of that ? a carbon copy of something ... unreal and completely influenced by unoriginal opinions ?

just because i'm nobody to YOU, doesn't mean i ain't somebody to someone else.

oh man.

so, i realized i should probably apply around the country. lmfao, but i'm not gonna.
i'm gonna submit applications to the following:

University of Hawaii West Oahu [x]
University of Hawaii Manoa [x]
University of Hawaii Hilo
Hawaii Pacific University
Louisiana State University
University of Louisiana West Monroe
Grambling State University

as you can see by that list, it's either Hawaii or Louisiana. but definitely FML ! like no joke. wtf, applications :(

one more thing

for some reason, this week is all about all time low for me; i totally wish my name was holly or maria :) so i could say some of their songs are about meee. they're definitely on repeat right now, lightening my mood -- which wasn't really crappy till i started thinking about how crappy i felt.

"too much of you is never enough"


"you talk like you're famous;

you're shameless"

"maybe it's not my weekend,

but its gonna be my year"

"but there's room for two,

six feet under the stars"

TODAY

interesting. boring. exciting. lame.
that's the entire day in a nutshell for ya.

can i just add that PMS sucks ? like, it makes me into ... something i absolutely dislike. not only am i really irritable, but i'm also clingy, annoying, fat, hungry, whiny(er), AND LETS NOT FORGET -- TIRED.

time to do homework & finish my "project" -- it's fairly badass. yep.

definitely maybe.

lovelovelove

miss

feel or suffer from the lack of; "she misses her boyfriend" 2: fail to attend an event or activity; "she missed class" [ant: attend] 3: fail to reach or get to 4: be without. [syn: lack] [ant: have]

you

used to refer to the one or ones being addressed; "I'll lend you the car. You shouldn't care so much" 2: used to refer to an indefinitely specified person; one "You can't win them all"

madly

adv 1 in a desperate manner; "she misses him madly" 2: in an insane manner; "she behaved insanely"; "she behaves crazily without medication" [syn: insanely, crazily, dementedly] [ant: sanely] 3: (used as intensives) extremely; "she was madly in love"

i do -- & i hope you are having a wonderful time whatever you're doing. & that the feeling is mutual.

top 5

1. the mixed tape: jack's mannequin
2. rest of my life: kottonmouth kings
3. boston: augustana
4. can't stand it: never shout never
5. gravity: sara bareilles

the mixed tape.

i told you so.

it's hard to watch someone's life go down the shitter -- especially when you love them to death. even harder to have to watch two of them at the same time.

and no matter what advice you give -- you're still U N H E A R D.

lately these days, its like no one's listening to me. like i dont matter or some shit. that's fine. i'll matter to someone when i separate myself from them, right ? "omg where've you been ? i missed you. i have so much to tell you" or "why dont you talk to me?" or my personal favorite "do you hate me?"

whatever. whatever happens. happens i guess.

old dance, new favorite.

youtube is TOTALLY my best friend today :) okay so i was watching this, and by the end, i was tearing up. YEAH. like, i felt it. just ... whoa.

i wanna dance to THIS song

white houses -- vanessa carlton. okay, so this song is all about changes and innocence blah blah blah. AND LOSING YOU'RE VIRGINITY. for sure :) hahaha i would. i totally would listen to a song like this and want to dance to it.

100th post

dedicated to you :)

hmm

relatively good day -- tomorrow will be even better :) & saturday will be just amazingly wonderful.

SO, i haven't driven my car in siiiince, tuesday ? yeah, tuesday. no gas money. 1/2 a tank. & the heater doesnt come one -- not too favorable when it comes to driving if you ask me. i also hate driving. i feel so sketched out bcuz if i get one more ticket, my license gets suspended. FANFXCKINGTASTIC.

okay, so also, ive been in a heated debate with myself to straighten my hair. ive never done it & i dont think i will. loosen the curls, maybe -- just to resemble that of KE$HA'S pure awesomely awesome partynessnessness. but not straighten it, i have far too much and itll look like a wilted bush. why is straight hair so attractive ? i think its boring. like, curly hair can have SO much personality -- sure, you cant like, straighten and twist it and curl it -- but curly hair is where its at. its unique. and you can make them flat. or volumize 'em. i'm proud of my hair & the sheer amount of badass volume it attains when i want it to.

speaking of badass ...

i'll have an order of johnny knoxville with a side order of sexy. CAN YOU SUPERSIZE THAT ? BRING IT ONNN.

cheese ...

okay, so first off, whatever happened to foster's home for imaginary friends ? second, cheese's adhd resembles mine.

my life as liz

so, at first, i really didn't like the show. i thought it was lame and was like, "whoa, what did SHE do to get her own show?" i mean, there are plenty of girls like her ... social outcast; loner; individualist; doesnt give a fxck what people think -- who dont have their own show.

but it's kinda nice to watch someone who's JUST LIKE ME deal w/life. it definitely helps.

i've also given into the wonder that is ONLINE SHOPPING. DUN DUN DUN ! on the plus side, i don't have to move -- and i think that's the best part.

oh and i found this on fredflare and HAD to post it up.

HAHAHAH ! its a journal. JEALOUS.

fredflare.com

haha they have the most AMAZING shxt on there. like bandaids shaped like strips of bacon. and cool accessories & clothes -- ch-ch-ch-ch-check it out :)

started dressing cute again -- but fear not ! the t-shirts like to make appearances when i'm feeling shxtty -- which is liiiiike 4/5 days of school :) jkjkjklololol soo i made it a definite goal to buy a shirt from univ. of hawaii, LSU, and univ. of monroe. REP LOUISIANA BABYY <33 as soon as funds are in order :)

today wasn't SO bad. nothing too epic going on except kicking ass in dance again :) oh, and apparently, i'm good a DRAWRING. yes, drawring.

kay well,

you're a piece of shit.

watching teen mom

maci is definitely my favorite; bcuz bentley is the cutest & ryan's a dick. okay, anyway. can i just say that life for me is going about a mile a minute & i'm going through hell to keep up ?

i can't even begin to explain. but oh well, this is my lifeee. turnabout's on saturday & THAT'S gonna be a good fkn time. yeyeyeye :)

because i am a queen

i'm fucking cute. i may not be as cute as some -- but i'm not hideous. i figured that out today :) haha lovelovelove india arie right now :)

"am i less of a lady if i don't wear pantyhose ?

my mama says a lady aint what she wears but what she knows;

but i've drawn a conclusion, this is all an illusion --

confusion's the name of the game; a misconception - a mass deception;

something's gotta change"

Lyrics India Arie lyrics - Because I Am A Queen lyrics

thank goodness

for best friends, tarot cards, shmoddy shmots, big vans, big plans, ruined plans, laughing about aforementioned plans, meaty pizzas, being a bitch about EVERYONE, hating cockblockers, haterade ...

that sums up my night.
& a little help from my friends.

HAHAHA. btw, i'm cuter. and he said so; he'd much rather chill w/me -- but whatever -- life goes on :) haha, its even better when you've listed in your head 2 boys you'd go to turnabout with, but they've both been asked, only to find out they'd rather be going with you bcuz you're fun and one of their good friends. HAHAHA. i love my life.

... *starts walking away & singing*

"i'm sorry if i stole your [boy];

i'm sorry if [he] likes me more than [he] ever liked you --

[he] never liked you --

i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry if i stole you [boy]"

tomorrow is a new day

indeed it is. too bad trying to maintain perfection in school takes a toll on me. & i realized today that i will fail drawing -- bcuz i'm just terrible at drawing. TERRIBLE.

whatever :)

miles from where you are,

so, i was reading Love Letters -- 150 Letters You Were Never Meant to See & stumbled across this one. so i whipped out my phone, and took a picture :) i figured it matched.

today sucked. really bad. all day, my zune was on repeat; "set fire to the third bar" -- snow patrol <3 yes, the one from the overplayed Dear John previews -- okay, let me say that if that movie doesn't make me cry, i want a refund. if they change it in any way, shape, or form, i'll be very upset. the book is absolutely beautiful.

that song matches that picture exactly :(

"i find a map & draw a straight line;

over rivers, farms, & state lines.

the distance from 'a' to where you'd 'b' --

it's only finger-lengths that i see"

back to my suckass day. it sucked. point. blank. period. yeah.

figured this is what you think

just for you, hun.

all smiles :)

just got back from a coffee run w/jordan. we just go out, and talk for hours about everything and anything that comes to mind. apparently, i'm just a misunderstood tomboy that's fairly cute :) i can dig it -- i guess it kinda explains why i don't have many "friends" ... or a "clique"

just a buttfxck load of acquaintances and a small group of very close, very trusted friends.

whatever though; i may be misunderstood, misplaced, out of touch, shy, complex, crazy, loud, tomboy, girly -- whatever -- that's what you think :) its just a matter of accepting that you're not gonna understand everyone you run into and classify them right off the bat. my goal in life isn't to confuse people or push them away -- it's just to be me.

like i've said before -- either get with it, or get on without it.

<3angelica

"... even when the coffee runs cold, the conversation carries on" :) my life is awesome. now, time to play call of duty.

8th semester senior

let's give a run down of my day ... class by class :)

1stperiod (advanced math): lame, class expectations. blah blah blah. then books & got homework. laaaame !
2ndperiod (ap spanish 5): same old, same old. passed my final with a 73% ! new grammar lesson. got homeworkkkk.
3rdperiod (consumer management): probably the most useful class i'll be taking. its all life skills ... like budgeting, buying a house, interviews, taxes ... that kinda stuff.
4thperiod (lunch): stayed in. definitely not gonna do it anymore.
5thperiod (journalistic writing): got homework. class expectations. all good though
6thperiod (drawing&printmaking): hold up, let me say that i CANNOT draw. my counselor made me take this class. hahaha
7thperiod (dance 2): praise the little lord jesus ! something i can excel at. talked to jaffee about audtioning for orchesis. she told me to get my back leg straight & i should be okay :) GOOD NEWWWWS ! oh and a getting to know you activity.

"name and favorite color"

"angelica. i'm a senior. & my favorite colors are black and navy blue"

"of course ... navy blue"

{the class didn't get it. so she told me to explain}

"well ... its easier if i include it in my intro ... hi, i'm angelica. i'm a senior. i like military men & long walks on the beach."

HAHAHAH.
8thperiod (government): cute teacher. getting to know you activity. blah. small class of 14

sooo school was decent. i figure it should be decent this semester. no more physics :)

so i'm content.

figured it out;

i want TWO tattoos. but i think my first is gonna be either ... where miley cyrus has hers ... or on my wrist. & it'll say "stay true" in a cursive, scrawly, scripty writing. yep :) i was really excited when i thought about it in class.

then the second will be my nautical stars on either my hips or behind my ear. we'll have to see :) 18th birthday's coming up quick !

kaaay so.

18th birthday. gotta have a rite of passage. hmmm. i wonder. SO many possibilitiesss. i mean, you could go buy a lottery ticket. or get cigarettes. register to vote. HAVE A DEBUT (like i might). uhm ... get your juvenile crimes & shit cleared. hmmm oh and get pierced w/o a parent present. no curfew. no real obligation to go to school. get your license updated. learn to file taxes (HAHAHA). watch porn.

buuut i'll settle on tattoos. i know what i want. not sure where yet :)

so i guess i'm just SO cool

that people feel like they need to buy my friendship. or imitate me. that drives me absolutely insane. you're YOU, dude -- be yourself & the self you are should be revolved around what YOU love. otherwise, you're nothing but a carbon copy -- which completely lacks what makes YOU beautiful. & in a carbon copy, you lack what makes what you're copying worth copying -- sure, you say the shit, listen to whatever, do whatever -- but when it comes down to it, you're missing what matters: heart. whoever you're copying has an individual, unattainable heart that matches that personality -- without that, you're absolutely nothing.

what makes me "beautiful ?" i dunno, i guess the things that make me who i am.

(i'd totally list them, buuuut, my stalkers might try to steal that too.)

which reminds me, speaking of beauty, i never understood why girls felt it was necessary to hop on myspace & facebook and post pictures of themselves half dressed. you know exactly what i'm talking about. it's trashy & unnattractive -- leave SOMETHING to the imagination -- it makes you worth the chase. & i dunno about the rest of you, but when a guy comments my shit going "omg yr so hot, can i fuck you?!" i feel violated. it's not flattering -- it's creepy. & then you sit and pout about how you dont have a boyfriend.

whatthefuckever. as i've said before: NOBODY LIKES HOES.

so i guess summing it all up ...

STAY TRUE TO YOURSELF -- & moreover, you're gonna find someone who loves YOU for YOU. YOU'RE personality. YOU'RE heart. what makes YOU YOU.

if the world was filled with angelicas ... it'd be a VERY dangerous place. especially bcuz the original is so damn complex that there'd never be a full copy. hahaha.

<3

kinna nightly

again. oh so very hot.

next piercinggg

i'm not even gonna ask; i'm just gonna do it. hahahah take that ! industrialindustrialindustrial

dear cutest boy on earth,

I LOVE YOU <3
x4327943543

so i logged back onto twitter today. its like, a cyber party for me today ! i even got on & screwed with myspace. hahah. no facebook though. that shxt's laaaame.

www.twitter.com/angelica_baby
^^follow me^^

uhm,

angelica's billboard top 20 for this week

1. your love is my drug: ke$ha
2. disgusting: ke$ha
3. mr. watson: ke$ha
4. dat new new: kid cudi
5. aint no rest for the wicked: cage the elephant
6. yes: lmfao
7. i am not a whore: lmfao
8. converting vegetarians: infected mushroom
9. us: regina spektor
10. waiting for my real life to begin: colin hay
11. steal my sunshine: len
12. soundtrack 2 my life: kid cudi
13. i'll run: the cab
14. the dance: charlotte martin
15. fever for the flava: hot action cop
16. what do you say: mickey avalon
17. i'm on a boat :)
18. save a horse, ride a cowboy: big n rich ;)
19. she has a girlfriend now: reel big fish
20. buzzin: shwayze

listen to them & it'll be like i'm with you ! :) hahahah, kidding. jokejokejoke. not really though. but that is the uhm .. mood ? for this week.

new semester. 3 & a half day week. sounds good to meee.

gooooood morning <3

i've fully accepted that i'm a drama queen & that everyday, my world is coming to a crashing end due to one small thing or another :)

but hey -- either get with it, or get on without it.

half the time, i don't give a shit. but the other half, all hell breaks loose. this morning, it was that i was forced to eat pancakes. which are nasty. yuck. last night it was that i suddenly remembered that a certain mr. channing tatum (yeah, you know him. tall. hot. hot. muscular. hot. MINE.) is married to some nobody actress. whatever channing, i'm better & you'll realize it :)

buuut until then, i guess i'm stuck with you :) and you know who YOU are. hardyharhar.

OKAY. wait, hold up a minute. an ex boyfriend texts you after pretending you weren't alive for the past 6 months telling you how much he misses you and loves you -- even though he has a girlfriend, do you:

a) ignore him back. fuck that fucker.
b) make him jealous.
c) talk & be best fraaaans again.

i go with option a. boys are dumb, ya digg ?

chills, yo.

omg. please let me be HALF that good.

can i also add

ke$ha and i ? yeah, we gonna party some day.

I'M GONNA CRY.

i've read the book 7 times <3 i get all choked up watching the preview. someone take me to that movie and hold meeee :( VICTORIA ! hahah

.... by the way ....
i've accepted that you have yet to realize exactly where you should be; but when you do, you'll find a way to get there -- & i'll be waiting.

<3 angelica

victoria rose;

my partner in crime :) i'd be an absolute mess without her -- literally. its like she's my conscious or something. & she has been fondly renamed as my wife <3

i love you babygirl :) hahah

keep dreaming all you -- dreamers :)

<3angelica

back again, angelicaaa ?!

yep. its trueee.
2nd semester of senior baby baby !