btw:

to all you pieces of shxt out there :)

rebelution.

definitely lovin 'em. anyway, my day has been fabulous ! what about yours ? i learned i'm gettin all A's for the first quarter :) hell yeah. hell yeah. hell yeah. so i try not to get sucked into whatever the school is listening to ... but i figured i'd give Rebelution a listen and omg. absolutely wonderful. definitely one of my favorites, along w/Reel Big Fish :) and OPM.

wait, what ?

i love you.
with all my heart and tummy, too :)

!!!

the truth.

lovelovelove !

....

can i just get accepted to Hawaii Pacific University already ?
can it be august so i can get the fxck out of here already ?

:(

my week has just SUPREMELY sucked. no joke. just like, everything went up in flames one after the other. i've just drowned myself in schoolwork and college applications to hold it together and stay busy so i dont think about it.

& you're not even there to talk to anymore. which makes me just bottle it up. and cry.

WHATEVER.

valentine's day is rapidly approaching. whoopdeefkndoo. i always hated valentine's day; bcuz somehow, my heart's always broken around this time. whether it's some HUGE fight or a break up or infidelity -- it's happened EVERY SINGLE TIME.

& because i started thinking about that; my day was completely shitty. COMPLETELY. SHITTY. so i figured i'd just call out all three guys that made a difference. not by name or anything. just by crimes committed.

dickhead #1) first heartbreak. ever. 8th grade :( but it also doesn't help that every once and a while he comes in and eats and we talk. i'm over it for suree.

jerkface #2) met him freshman year. liked him till he moved to washington. dated on and off for three years. i'd date other guys in-between and vice versa. he cheated on me w/a freshman ... but he had me wrapped around his finger. which is what i'm afraid of. he could say ANYTHING and i dunno how i'd react. but i guess it sucks even more that he wont even talk to me ... oh and he has some new girlfriend.

jackass #3) ONE YEAR. best friend. not too bad.

if i'd known then,

another one of those days

today, i really just wanna sit around, blog, clean my room, do a lil laundry, then go off to work.

53 days until i'm 18 :) i want silver balloons and a crown. lmfao because i'm the motherfxcking princess ! not really. wanna know my birthday wishlist ?

1. YOU
2. TO
3. BE
4. WITH
5. ME

wtf ?

lovelovelove this song; lovelovelove ke$ha ... hatehatehate my lifeee

dear john,

it made me really. really. really. upset.
'nuff said.

tell hollywood to quit with cliches & start getting REAL. and stick to the book :) its the best part.

CUDI !

heartbreaker

have you ever just felt absolutely, terribly unattracted to someone and make a point to try to make it obvious -- but they're still obsessed with you ?

i mean, wtf are you supposed to do ? hire a skywriter and make it so blunt that they'll never talk to you again ? how hard is it to understand that i'm just NOT into you like that ? i mean, i know i'm a cool chick and everything but ... LMFAO jaykay :)

but really ... GET A CLUE.

on a lighter note, tracy chapman is fabulously fantastic when you're stressed. same with sara bareilles, regina spektor, vanessa carlton, sia, & kid cudi. YEEEE CUDI :) hahaha

today kicked ass

yeah, it did :) woke up at 8:30 thoroughly believing i'd slept through first period and so sat up in bed for 10 minutes pondering what to do -- till i realized it was a late start and the bus would be there in ... 15 minutes :) so i power-dressed and fluffed aaaand ended up looking not NEARLY as shitty as i do when i have more time. school was pretty interesting. hahaha, well, not class -- but people seemed more tolerable.

YEAH. MY SCHOOL -- TOLERABLE. IMPOSSIBLE, NO ?

but now its time to slave away on homework, applications, & scholarship essays. absolutely fabulous.

... Dear John on friday. GIRLS NIGHTTT <33

"you've got some potential, angelica"

potential for what ? to be one of you ? no offense, but i like myself being uncloned. & besides, who made you in charge of deciding what makes someone somebody or someone nobody ? why would i wanna be part of that ? a carbon copy of something ... unreal and completely influenced by unoriginal opinions ?

just because i'm nobody to YOU, doesn't mean i ain't somebody to someone else.

oh man.

so, i realized i should probably apply around the country. lmfao, but i'm not gonna.
i'm gonna submit applications to the following:

University of Hawaii West Oahu [x]
University of Hawaii Manoa [x]
University of Hawaii Hilo
Hawaii Pacific University
Louisiana State University
University of Louisiana West Monroe
Grambling State University

as you can see by that list, it's either Hawaii or Louisiana. but definitely FML ! like no joke. wtf, applications :(

one more thing

for some reason, this week is all about all time low for me; i totally wish my name was holly or maria :) so i could say some of their songs are about meee. they're definitely on repeat right now, lightening my mood -- which wasn't really crappy till i started thinking about how crappy i felt.

"too much of you is never enough"


"you talk like you're famous;

you're shameless"

"maybe it's not my weekend,

but its gonna be my year"

"but there's room for two,

six feet under the stars"

TODAY

interesting. boring. exciting. lame.
that's the entire day in a nutshell for ya.

can i just add that PMS sucks ? like, it makes me into ... something i absolutely dislike. not only am i really irritable, but i'm also clingy, annoying, fat, hungry, whiny(er), AND LETS NOT FORGET -- TIRED.

time to do homework & finish my "project" -- it's fairly badass. yep.

definitely maybe.

lovelovelove

miss

feel or suffer from the lack of; "she misses her boyfriend" 2: fail to attend an event or activity; "she missed class" [ant: attend] 3: fail to reach or get to 4: be without. [syn: lack] [ant: have]

you

used to refer to the one or ones being addressed; "I'll lend you the car. You shouldn't care so much" 2: used to refer to an indefinitely specified person; one "You can't win them all"

madly

adv 1 in a desperate manner; "she misses him madly" 2: in an insane manner; "she behaved insanely"; "she behaves crazily without medication" [syn: insanely, crazily, dementedly] [ant: sanely] 3: (used as intensives) extremely; "she was madly in love"

i do -- & i hope you are having a wonderful time whatever you're doing. & that the feeling is mutual.

top 5

1. the mixed tape: jack's mannequin
2. rest of my life: kottonmouth kings
3. boston: augustana
4. can't stand it: never shout never
5. gravity: sara bareilles

the mixed tape.

i told you so.

it's hard to watch someone's life go down the shitter -- especially when you love them to death. even harder to have to watch two of them at the same time.

and no matter what advice you give -- you're still U N H E A R D.

lately these days, its like no one's listening to me. like i dont matter or some shit. that's fine. i'll matter to someone when i separate myself from them, right ? "omg where've you been ? i missed you. i have so much to tell you" or "why dont you talk to me?" or my personal favorite "do you hate me?"

whatever. whatever happens. happens i guess.