just one of those days, ya digg?

mMm; since i have no where to be, except high school musical 3 with my little sister a little later tonight, i guess i should update you with miles upon miles of my life.

so, this week has been filled with good days and bad days; thank goodness majority have been good days :) things seem to be looking up sometimes, &sometimes, it feels like you're the lowest of the low.
but i refuse to give in. i came into this world bloody, kicking, and screaming; &i wont leave it any other way.
hey, you get what you get, right? not every day can have a silver lining.

allow me this moment to go off on a fucking tangent: i fucking hate you; and everything about you. &dammit, i'll replace you with someone twelve times as fucking better. too many times have i made myself physically sick with the thought of you; you know why? because you insist that i believe lieslieslies.
many thanks to one of the best movies in the world: ten things i hate about you:
I Hate the way you talk to me;
And the way you cut your hair.
I Hate the way you drive my car.
I Hate it when you stare.
I Hate your big dumb combat boots,
And the way you read my mind.
I Hate you so much it makes me sick.
It even makes me rhyme.
I Hate the way you're always right.
I Hate it when you lie.
I Hate it when you make me laugh
Even more so when you make me cry.
I Hate it when you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I dont hate you.
Not even close.
Not even a little bit.
Not even at all.


thanks for that, friend. i just have a lot of you on my mind. a lot.


but there is some relief to it all: crushcrushcrush <33

haaaaah;
time to eat -- then taking my sister out on our dateeee;

LATER <33

fell outta love today

i'm off this ride.
for good this time; no looking back.
friends is a good place to stay for now;
maybe something when you man up -- but not now -- i need what i need, and i don't need you in that way.

kali took my phone today, just to keep me from texting a certain someone...and it worked &my day was aaaaamazing :) well, most of it.

<33 time to take notes for a rough draft paper due fridaaaay :)

baby, you don't love me anywayy;

i'mYours;

lovelovelove that song :) makes me smile like no otherrrr motherrr brotherrrr ! alright, on the phone with my cousinnnn, ciara.

we bitchin' about each and every one of you! YES, ALL YOU MEN.
:)

asdoifjdskalfjlkasdjflkjdslkjfsidfjosidafjasdoifjasdo;
dumb trick of a sister.
longer entry laaater.


mMm; good day todaaay.
you make me wanna spread my arms and fall, because i know, along the way, you'll be there to catch me

today;

i wrote him a story &+ sent it; sent my love, my heart, my feelings, my rage -- everything -- so he can feel it.

this is called closure.

&+ i'm ready to get back out there.

i'll always love him; but wont always be in love with him -- and for now, our book is on the lowest shelf, just in case i need to open it again;

because boy, if you said that you love me, i'd run to you in a heartbeat.
<33

still at school;

it's color war daaay.
GO JUNIORS.

longer entry later;

i figured out today, that i can't love you anymore, because you take everything i give -- and give nothing in return -- and oby, i can't return to that.

fknConfused;

curbing my spending habit -- goodfknLuck; got my nails did {woooot}. kinda in a bad mood.

this girl got three emotions at one time;

Dunno if i should cry;
cry because you don't believe in us half as much as i do; cry because the things you say to me don't match what you say to other people; or just cry because i have no fkn clue what you want from me.

Dunno if i should smile;
smile because you finally see something in me that i've been trying to make you see since we met; smile because everyone says that it's a match made in heaven; or smile, because it took you this long -- and i dunno if you'll be worth it.

Dunno if i should knock your lights out;
because you're a bullshitter; bitch hates me; or because i have no idea what's going on.

&+ it's sending me on a rampage.